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Don’t Worry,
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- Paper Route
HEWWWWOOO no one. My life has been pretty steady.
same shit, different day;
all I think about is what’s happening in the next minute, next hour, tomorrow, next week, christmas, years from now, when I die…… I can’t help but contemplate the future. I plan too much.. Right now I’m planning what spanish class will be like?, what’s for lunch?, where will chase be at 3:18?, should I change out of my uniform after school?, how long until I need more gas?, SDFJLKDFGLKDFJG all this shit.
Why can’t I just live in the moment? I’m scared if I do I’ll get caught up in the happiness and lose it. I’m scared I won’t make it into Alabama because I’m not as smart as my sister was. I’m scared. I’m a chill-whatever-i-dont-give-a-fuck personality but my mind worries.
BUT I MISS A SO MUCH. yes, anna merino. I think about our friendship all the time. I miss it, so so so much. I don’t know why. I look at her at school and think back.. I read our old blogs and search and search for her old tumblr. It sounds creepy, but I’m just reminiscing a happier time.
i wish i wasn’t scared to tell her.